it's an end but a new start

终于离开了今年，你也离开我了，真的离开我了，抱歉我没能完成给过你的承诺，也曾经轻视与你的约定，真的很抱歉，能知道你现在幸福就好，我既然没想像的伤心，因为我知道他会做的比我好，自少他能完成我办不到的承诺，这样也好...真得太好...

wasai..poor liao

this going to be the most dificult week of me... assignment?? nah.. they can't even couse me to bleed tat much, but broke in cash is surrly killing me, shit... now it's monday, i've about 20 bucks for me to last a week and it's about 5 bucks a day...aiyo... KNS

I'm on my way~~~

muahahah~~ finally some hard has been paid off... hmhm... the project from may to end of this year is going quite well.. finally fit in my departed one year's "orange shirt".. whoa...really miss my sell in tat shirt.. really one year didn't wear.... if u have my facebook inside there are all the pic tat ppl post to me.. ty yo them.. and at tat time i'm still fat fat o ( now oso abit lar)... hmhm...let's see wat happens in the year end..call me out if you wana know~~

2W

today as usual...it's like my life is now so mechine..haiz???

morning=ass ichy... juice and bread
lunch= rice/ chicken/ vegie SIAN!!
night= 1L soya / bread / and 2 batang chicken and 1 batang keram.... alittle onli

15 min jogging
bicep=100 each
cheat=100

1w6d wasai..

so lazy today, becoz raining?? or i'm just about to lazz?? but every thing didn't stop me from work out today, the gym was so cold today, not good lar... so i went back home to continue my work out.. hm... it's obvious tat now i onli change my upper body to be more muscular, but har... the tummy leh, like ramain.. so tomolo i think i should change abit of my ways... 1st do all the running lar, stairs climbing lar, and ridding, then i continue with my dumbell..

morning=same
lunch= abit rice/ fish/ vegie..(so boring..)
night=same with morning..hmhm

15 min ridding
chest=100
bicep=100 each
shoulder=30(wa...this new style really die fast..)

1w5D

wa...wat a start this week, so smooth, today go ktv with shirley and tensen, same again newway, so sian, no freeflow drinks, but the meals are ok, the salad buffet boring lar, btw..tensen's good at singing.. can compare to me lar,,hahaha...joking onli, and still went to my work out session.. yea

morning= same
lunch= some rice and chicken/ green apple oso got
dinner= c'reals wit milk

15 minit bike
back=150
wrist=100 each
bottem belly= 40(die)
tricep=60
new. stairs climbing mechine= 10 floors

1W4D, it's so into my plan

hmhm...finally got 1 day that my plan is going smoothly...today got some1 say i lose abit fat o..muahaha..now onli i know tat i do gym and lose fat ar... the weight will not drop... just the shape will srink down, hmhm... today play whole day ball...the work out, today i soo duno got wat power, straigh push chest 200 times divide into 4 sets 50 times each,wasai.... now night like break appart, but tat's wat i like, hmhm... man leh.. nice oOOoo

morning= same
lunch= little rice/ chicken/ 2 types of vegie which i duno the name
night= 4 slice bread/ then curi curi makan " fat one" BBQ lok lok..nice la..the chicken was the best, lamb was ok, the dear meat was not really consider as food.

bike ride 15 min
chest=200
shoulder=100

DAy 10 FAIL

haiz.... today really not so my plan lo... eat too much, coz my frend threat the whole day, 1st went to Rawang to have Talapiah fish wan tan mee for breakfast(die).. but it was ok onli... it's like u order steam fish outside with noodles bside it... then start off my work out... night my freind come again, aiyo.... still belanja BAK GU TEH... shit lar... but really nice lo...wtf...it's at sunway there...aiyo...just weight my weight,...its still the same....

2/8/09 113 kg (same...F_cK)
morning= steam fish with noodles
afternoon= skiped due to futsal
dinner= nice bak gu teh that kills me...

bicep each hand= 100
upper shoulder= 40
front wrist=50
top wrist=50

DAy 9 NOT AGAIN!!!!

today i went to UCSi gym in the morning, though that in the Saturday there will be less people..but it turn out that more people are there...wa, every one is so hard working leh...hmhm..good, night went to a friends party, the food was so normal... u know lar...those normal party foods la... but saw alot of PREETY grils o... slirp~~, nice.... and by acident meet face to face with the most delicious mutton satay... shit... it seems tat i'm so into it...

morning= 1 green apple
lunch= abit rice/ chicken/taufu
dinner=sandwich / satay...shit

15min bike ride
chest= 100
tricep= 65(die laio)
p.s don't do tricep 1st..it will break your muscles and you won't be able to do other workouts.

DAy 8..trapped

today was good...but accident happened at night, ate too much of seafood, i sure did heard kevinn said tat eating seafood can help to repair bone join's... so i ate, alot... somemore at night..wtf

morning= 2 green apple
lunch= alittle rice/ curry mutton / alot cabage
dinner= 1 green apple/ 2 popiah / seafood...shit!!

upper belly= 100
thigh= 30 each
bicep+chest= 50 each
front wrist=100 each
back wrist= 50 each

daY 7- encounter the worst PAO

aiyo!! today so tired, really do my brains out, wa...i found out tat i eat less and less now, it's not that i pretend.... it's just felt full...but hungry very easily... today play badminton like shit, the whole body is cracking up... almost fell into the KFC trap, but i still manage to say NO.. but ate the most shitty chicken pao for dinner at the conought stall just opposite the KFC, who wishes to try shit and it's puik-king magic...pls make sure you're not alone..BLEK~~

morning=same
lunch= small pork mee soup
dinner= shitty chicken pao / break with chicken floss / green apple

work out
chest=100
bicep= 100 each hand
back shoulder=60
bicep+chest=20 (died here)
shoulder= 60
belly=40 (really die liao)

day 6

oh no...today no work out again... but got play futsal, hmhm.. i think tat counts, bcoz of the mahjong game today made me didn't work out..wtf..some more didn't earn or loss anything.. so sian...waste time..muahahah

morning=same
lunch=alittle rice/ more vegie/ chicken/ watermelon/ 2 small egg tart ( so so onli)
dinner= chicken ho fun/ 2 green apple and now drinking my green tea with lemon (shock~~)

DAy 5

AIYAK..today no work out.. but got play more ball then usual..hmhm...

morning=same
lunch= makan with mom, stingray, taufu, bean sprout, chicken and of coz some rice
P.s eat with mom so nice, she treat
night= not feel like eating, why leh?? bread and lots of water...

DAy 4

hmhm..today as usual..do the same thing, but very strange, i didn't sweat so much today, hmhm.. wat's wrong???

morning= same
lunch= alittle rice/ chicken/ vegie/ some fried crab thing tat i duno wat's tat...
dinner= bread/ one 1.5L 100+/and green tea with lemon
P.s green tea makes u more hungry..shit..

15min bike ride
160 cheast
60 leg
40 thigh
60 tri-cept(spelling??)

yea..1st scale

okok..now it's 26 july and i'm gona scale my weight.. hmhm..onli process in about 4 days, now it's time to know the little result, ok, lets see....113kg..same..wtf...hmhm..tomolo must work harder.

DAy 2

hoho..same day, start off the same way, but change the style of work out, this time is totally focus on the fat burning section, it's diffrent compare to muscle building, M-Building is to do heavy and slowly, u'll feel stiff and tight with your body and for F-Burning it's to do lighter weights but fast, the feeling is like your hand burns and sore.. hmhmhm...prepare to drop your hands off.

workout (FB)
bike 1 set
chest=60
thigh??(big leg..i duno the spelling)=60
stomach=40

morning= same
Lunch= half bowl rice, more vegie, some beef lungs and chicken dremstick (satu~~)
dinner= bread 6 peices and 2 apple

P.S the whole part of the chicken has the lowest fat is the drumstick and the highest protien is the breast...

Day 1

yea... finish day one...feels good.. it's like tat after gyming... u'll always feel hungry very fast, but tat's normal and u can ignor the eating. start off good today..hmhm...

this is a record of wat i eat and work out at this period, so if anyone wan to know how to loos weight or fat, hehe...feel free to have a look..oh and also fat guys wana build body, wheather it works, i'm now testing it.

food
moring= orange juice one normal glass & corn flakes with milk. ( not too much, soup bowl)
lunch= Esso on the run chicken rice (breast)
dinner= 4 eggs half boiled with 6 pieces of wholemeal bread.

work out
2 set bicycle= 30 minit
3 game shoulder dumbbell= 135 times

MIssion Imposible???

i'm back, came to blogging again after 2 month?? or 1.1/2 month?? i 4get lu, after looking back...these few days..NO..it's month, start from mid-May, been doing gym, well can say now have a little result.. A LITTLE O.. but oso fat, deng!! these time i duno y i have the feeling of willing to go to the end, last time i oso have the plan of slimming down but fail, hmhm.... now i'm like when i get up...u really wan go gym..now i do until shoulder pain, haiz... and now i gonna do something that i've been planing for ages, yea... tat's sliming down and gaining V shape, yea..really dam far plan..and it's like a dream to me.. but according to myself, last time i'm more slim leh...SHIT!!!. but dreams are still to be made and to live, so i may start tomorrow my plan. this time i'm not cincai plan, i have my free UCSI gym budies with dam good shapes to polish me up, 1st the diet plan and the daily work out from fat burning to muscle working... aiyo..it's all la..well..tomolo really start lu..as a part of this blog..it's also my date measure list for wat i'm doing.

22/7/09 wednesday weight 113kg (WTF)
ps: weight will stay at this level couse i'm gyming, muscles are heavier then fat, so some1 tell me tat this measurment is not really needed cause i'll lose fat and gain muscles...and tat means i'll go heavier....this measurement will be3 taken every monday.

The Essence Of The Missing

最近我听到很值得令我静思的一段话，" 男友大过天"，很不错的一段话，真的... 着段话不但说的那个人是很享受溺在幸福中，也能让听的那个也似有被幸福的味道洒到，很明显的我是听的那个，这令我想起一个人，我们关系很好... 非常好...对方几乎是我的一切，但还是不能，还是到不了最后，很怜幸的我们还保持连络，唉... 酱也不错，我真的很想问她，那时的我在你心中有大过"天"吗??

Mr.Mr U've won BIG BIG 先生先生，你中奖了

For every one looking at this, i may have to remind you that this situation in surely true, dam true, no fake. So pls beware of this if u think tat u r categorized as an intelligent species, to show my incerity, i wrote this in English, and it's broken so tat u all MAY UNDERSTAND!! if u still don't... u r welcome to answer the wall with your dummy head. and b4 i start, to those who's been wandering why the hell is my blog page is so dam pure, blank, no pictures, so NOTHING, i truly here tells u why..PLS!!!!! I dunno how to use this F-KING PROGRAM YET!!!...Ty...k, now back to the main idea of putting this page up, I've realize tat in this period of time there are lots of cheaters lootering around, it happened tat i was entertained 3 times from last year October till now.. it's obvious tat it's form a same group bcoz the style and their story flow is 99.123% alike, un-realistic story, crappy marketing methods, strange situation handaling and the most stupid is... their acting was dumb, yea yea just like my friend bobby and ah Long, their habitaib are un-interupted by day or night, it's usually at places near banks, shopping mall open car-parks and may have more pattens in the comming future, as early mentioned, i've come across this drama 3 times... 3 F-king times..yea... i may sometimes think i do look stupid??? yea sir i do..is tat wat u guys wana hear?? so this is how it happened, the 1st time was on last year 2008 in October someday, it was on tuesday night about 8pm++ at sri petaling pasar malam just in front the public bank parking lots, i was with my X, we r planing to get some good momories at pasar malam (btw...stinky tou fu nice o), when the time i parked my car, there was this chinese former-dressed up guy came to me and said about someting about a promotion held in care4 exhibition hall, and we r so called so "lucky" to have a free voucher, i was like "wow, free stuf..cool" and he said tat these vouchers are just discount vouchers nothing else. so i tooked it and begun to left, he stoped me some how and made me opened it, well...it's quite easy to open, i guess it's been opened b4, there was nothing special in it, no discount, words, nothing... just a grey circle in the middle. so i was like "F, it's busted"... then the drama comes, 5-star junk acting skill are been installed... tat guy looked like so surprised and keeped on shaking my hand and keep on saying tat i won a @!%#$^$(duno wat) prize, and it's worth RM3k minimum or even a car.. then he quickly tooked out a newspaper advertisment which i duno were it came from and rubbed it in my face with cars and some cool prizes, he kept on telling me tat i might have have a chance to win big big..yea..BIG BIG..then he took out his DAM OLD cell-phone and called some1 tat he says is his manager, he put on the loud speakers so tat i may hear it and felt that it was real, here it goes like this, in chinese but i translate it (red is him and blue is the woman in the phone) "boss ar? i have a customer here ar..have won code GREY!! (in very poor dramatic of acting excitement) "real or not dun bluf lar..tat code is onli 5 in the whole country" "real 1 lar..i pass the phone to him" then i was like WTF@@ the laddy in the phone asked some questions like.. wat is the colour of the code??(grey) is the worker a friend of yours??(no), then she started to congratulat me like i'm god. End with the phone part then the trap comes, the guy will ask u to fetch him to some place were u never heard b4 but u know it's close, example no.25 jalan kuchai lama.. (yea every one knows jalan kuchai lama but not the no.25), to get the prize by today or the prize will be taken off, tat's probly words to make u panic and have the thought of getting the prize as soon as possible, he says tat the company is 24 hours wo...wow,i didn't know tat tey r so hard working... and he tried to hop into your car.. so the case ends, well i surely stoped him and ask him to leave, then he was like "boss, u really dun wan?? car wo, car!!!"(dam as if i dun have, although it's a kancil but it still classed as an 4 wheel 1 engine moving metal) yea..he kept on repeating it. well..i'm a man with brains, style, looks ... etc.. refuses him at no turning point, after a few times of words temptation, he gave up and start to act sore and try to piss you with word like " r u scared??".. well tat's all for the day... so next time B CAREFLL LAR!!!...i may update my 2nd and 3rd case which is more funnier and i pissed te guy off, if u guys wan to have a share of it..write it in my comment box man.. I WAN A FLOOD DOWN THERE!!!

Perfect Stab

好久没上载部落格了，是没时间??还是伤口依然烙疼着??事情以过了好一个月，但怎么还是有忐忑的怀念伤感.... 也许你对影响以是深入心扉。我一度尝试避免写部落格，好让我能忪警一下... 这些日子我以为我不为了别人而活，只忠于自我，但很快的我发现了我以往的观念是不如想象中如此容易糙捏，这次的确很羔，终于学会了痛，我不但高估了自己的洒脱，同时间也底估了你对我的重要。那天在餐厅遇见你，我傻了，愣住了...我不能给予任何反应，也不懂的如何反应，还是向知己求助，但没得到理想的解惑。那天我只好让自己沉下去，顿时的慌乱堵着我，回忆虐杀我，你就在我眼前，还是那样的你，平时一样的那些熟悉的服装，你依旧的头发，妆扮，那份曾经拥有，和我零距离的感觉，以被隔离，彼此的默契以被拒绝。我们依然向对方问好，聊天，此刻...我们都故意保持陌生。

Raid My Innocencet

与你的离期以近一个月，你依然让我难以忘怀，朱红的嘴唇香，扣心的深邃凄美的眼睛，让我留恋返寻的乌发，比拟鲜花但却有过之而不及的美，足以倾略我的一切的理性，攀附着我的感性。让我堕落在你的温情而不自觉，然而，你让我费解的拿捏着我们的感情，迅间将之粉碎的彻底，留下彷惶的我，在你建的自我保护的堡垒中自我毁灭，消遣，麻醉，霸权把我撤离你的世界，此班是单途行程，在也无法从新了。我望着眼前的路，只有我，连影子也是孤单的，倒影中的你不再是你，只不过是我卑微的欲望，想见你的妄想。

Molestation life 调戏生活

In the fact that i can write much faster in English, i my-as-well continue, today's a very FABULOUS day (PS: pls dun judge me with my spellings, it's the only way tat can make life happy, got it??) it started off with a cruel topic with the 1st mission of the day, celebrate Steven's single life recovering plus birthday KTV, well get a clue, which ktv serves the most horrible salads (not the veggie part, coz if tat sucks too, they can suck dirt.) the pasta BLAH~ the macaroni?? spelling confusion.. also BLEK~, it's so impressive that it was made as this bad state, i wander tat the chief really tried tat b4 they slap it on the table, it was aw full, if u wan me to describe how bad it was, hm.... it's like a chocolate bar but instead of chocolate u switch it with mud/dung..it was UN-eatable, UN-smellable... hell no I'm putting tat thing in my mouth, screw the "anti-wasting food idea" this pasta it's going straight to the floor, even after i pooped it out it's surely taste better, F the chief tat made this, S the idiot who 1st called tat food. sorry for I dun have pictures to show bcoz by looking at it makes me dead. finally we sang the sad songs and fun songs, nothing special, i still ownns all of them, muahahah... ate a very usual spegeetti with a ridickulas price, when back to school for my games, and i still ownned till the end, final words- I F-KING OWNED~~ tat's all....

Back to Me 还原自己

Prepair to be very UN-prepared, I've suddenly just thought of writing my blog in English, but it's just for fun, at least i can write more faster compare to Chinese, I've believe that I'm OK now, for now only..gua, now tat's a riddle tat packs me up with the reminding sadness, I've wander that god ever loved me b4??? yea it's true, god loves me, he took away my love but flood me with other categories of loves that i never really knew it's so good, yea... thank you guys, the ucsi freaks. today I've finally Sattle my motions and back to were i came from, yea.. back to the days when I'm SINGLE... F-king brought back the days, hmm.... really enjoyable life tat was, the molestation, the loud noice, the fun were all back.. where i dun really hope for. urg... now I'm like so free tat i dun even know how free i m, I've lost freedom coz it's always with me, if i dun have boundaries, how can i know how free i m???? man...I'm stress bcoz I'm not stress....

Premonition of a broken love

如一般的等你的电话，也知道如果是我打去，也料到你很忙，仿佛渐渐的习惯了，不问了，像已输入的工程式，没什么好反抗的了，这结膜渐渐的形成了，凝固了，扩散了，然后等待着其中一方将它点燃，让他熊熊的然烧，烧掉我们的一切，曾经，关系与对彼此的爱。这种不散非疏的关系待馨的维持了三周，终于碰上了决裂的火种，压力。还记得是2009年的3月6日，傍晚6点，接过你突然的短信，对你的表达方式熟透的我能感觉到点不对，你说" pls miss call me when u r free"。你没这样说过，平时就算是有什么事也直接call我，你还说喜欢听我声音，我及时回你电话，问你怎么了，你知道我在外而拒绝与我谈，一句"不方便"，我深感陌生，我们怎么回到朋友的时候的? 我们之间有什么事不方便的吗? 刚才那通话中是你的声音但没了我们的味道，我的宝贝不再对我撒娇，喋我说话，声音像推销员示，我即刻回家，在车上也强烈感到不安，自问世不是都要来了，之前我以对分开的念头早做心理准备，不知为什么的，我就是也有想过，只是我说不出口，我非不爱你但有无法完全投入爱你，可能是我的自私，我很快的做了决定，要是你真的说分手，我不挽留。

Man in the mirror 镜中人

隔着冰凉的表面，反映着谁的红眼? 安慰的话到底要怎么给。眼色中带点隐曰，你的痛我能感觉，那眼泪怎么流到我的唇边。你到底是谁? 为何会哭得那么狼狈，我的世界，连倒影也不对。镜子反映的世界太可怜，是否真能体会心疼的感觉? 那张脸，就像没有知觉，一遍一遍的在看你的脸，仿佛对我乞讨同情可怜，其实我也和你一样可怜。

departtion

你没来电，怎么了? 累了吗? 你以为我在忙吗? 我有说我忙吗? 我懂。。。忙碌，自已为是，淡情以为我们渐渐的无形距离完美的弧构着，连偶尔忘记对方也是逼不得以的，是应该的，正常的。。。我很怀疑，我怎么了? 我错了? 你说我们都忙了，真的。。。

while wine wines'

银字卷，藏在书鉴，我翻阅，岁月哭红双眼，月轧凋谢你不了解，无趣的脸，人志贱，红唇盛宴，夫不言，是谁在剑滴血，一杯愿酒，让谁体贴，敬在缘边

1/2 soul

我望着她，仿佛像死去的爱，我可以再来么? 你依然牵着我手，我累了? 变了? 变坏了? 还是。。。变回原来的自己? 我很快乐，但不怎么愿意承认快乐，因为我贪心，变心了吗? 还爱你吗? 你贴着我，我心疼，是为什么，连吻也不想了，你累了，走了。。。连我也走了，爱还剩下什么，回忆可贵吗? 需要骂? 能忘吗? 失忆较干脆啦。。。最后你还是忍不住抱我，是我胜了吗? 你输了吗? 最后我的双手还是紧抱着你，为什么我如此需要你? 你就是你，爱你就是爱你

kisses're made

刚从pangkok 回来，瘫痪的，谜疑的。。。我干嘛偏偏在农历新年期间旅游嘛。。。也许我对红包以无兴趣? 寂寞来袭? 窝讷言拒? 其实连自己也白雾往脑塞，真搞不清楚，但始终仍在出发前晚默默期待。。。